What now
I forgot my livejournal password so I’m unable to login to lj using my phone so I’ll just rant here (not sure why I’m actually explaining all that but ok fine.)
At this point of my life when I am single and looking forward to what lies ahead with added uncertainties and anxieties, i am thankful to have gone through all that because i have learnt the most about myself during that period. More than i ever did the past 19 years of my life.
I think I have been focusing too much on the “what ifs” the past few months. Like what if I tried harder. Would it have worked out then? Would Kenneth not have broken up with me? What if I did not pick a fight with him then and fussed over the smallest shit? what if I had expected less from him?
You know, basically all those things that would make me feel awful just really lousy. My life hasn’t really taken off yet but I am sure it will, in His time. He makes all things beautiful in his time.
Talking to Kenneth this morning made me realize how much I miss our stupid yet insightful conversations. Like he said, we’ve been closest to each other than we have with any of our friends. And so to have all that dissipate, it’s pretty tragic. But I guess that friendship thing would develop. Perhaps not now but maybe next time. At this moment, I really don’t this I would want to know which girl he is interested in. Hahaha,
Thats about all I have to rant.
Goodnight now.
